Sunday, March 29, 2009

Moving On

I can't tell you how excited I am to see Scott on Tuesday. It has been over 6 weeks since we've seen each other. The time apart has taught me a lot but I'm ready to start our lives up in Alaska. I've experienced lots of different emotions with being away from him. It has made me realize how much I love and care for him. He is my best friend and understands me so well.

The reason I stayed behind was to support my dance team and go to state with them. I'm glad I did because we took 3rd at state and they did an AMAZING job. I'm very proud of them and I will miss them very much.

The thing I have realized most about this time a part is how much Scott impacts my everyday life. He supports me when I have a bad day and is there when I have a good day. I'm excited to have my best friend back! 48 HOURS AND COUNTING!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

There is no title for this

The past few days have been a hard for me. With recent news of a friend going through an extremely difficult time to everyday challenges life hands us. I can't tell you how much I've realized just in the past day what the true meaning of life is.

I'm at a point where I don't know what to say or what to do to make the situation I find my friend in any better. Its one of those things where you can only be there for that person and offer your support. But for me I'm a fixer. I don't like seeing people struggle or experience pain.

But the thing about life is we don't have that choice. Its like a train barreling down the tracks at 100 MPH and all of the sudden you find yourself off of your feet. Struggling to figure out what just happened and why. We try to make sense of our situation. We try to find the solution. But as human beings sometimes we don't have that answer.

My previous experiences before this have taught me that no matter what the circumstance that God is there to listen. That He can provide comfort and support and love. He can provide the answer that your looking for and cannot find.

Along side of an amazing God and wonderful and comforting maker, you can also find out who truly cares about you. And it can teach you about the people around you. For me, these past couple have days have really shown me how great of a person Scott is. I don't mean to belittle the situation I'm in or say that as a result of it I'm finding wonderful things in my life. All I'm saying is I know he is a great person. But it has truly shown in the past couple of days with the support he has offered not only me but others as well.

All I know right now is that I'm here. And with this thing in front of me I don't know how to handle, I'm going to pray, and pray hard. More than ever I really need God to take the wheel and drive. With out that, I'd fall apart. Writing is therapeutic and so is dance, for me at least. But its not enough. Not in these types of situations.

I know for some this blog wont make a whole lot of sense. But I ask you to pray anyway. I ask you to pray for comfort and for peace and for healing for my friend.

I honestly thought that writing this out would make me feel better and it didn't. But at least now more people will pray for my friend. Thank you.

Friday, March 6, 2009


I'm really excited to see what God does next. So far he has given Scott and I this wonderful opportunity in Alaska and has provided everything that we could need. Scott just found a townhouse to rent and its on the same street as a dance studio. Which makes me SO happy.

And in reference to one of my previous blogs, I think I am going to become a dance teacher. Scott also found a job opening at the local high school in Kenai. They are looking for a head dance coach for their high school team! How perfect is that!

Everything is falling into place and I'm so excited for the next great thing that comes up! I will keep you all posted :)